Thursday, June 25, 2015

Thinking Out Loud: It's Almost Time

Thursday's are for Thinking Out Loud!  I am linking up with Amanda from Running with Spoons to share some random thoughts today.  It is 5pm on Thursday on the east coast, so I almost missed the boat on this...

Friends are so damn special you guys.  When I was struggling with disordered eating, I couldn't see the love that my friends and family were giving me.  All I could see was my own dislike for myself.  But now I see it all around me.  We are moving away and have a wedding in six weeks, so the love seems to be pouring in and it feels so good.

Our friends Rina and Derek took us to an AMAZING dinner at Crane and Turtle.

 May have been the best dish of my life
 So much Sake!

Moving sucks.  And moving across the country sucks even more.  The logistics rival wedding planning.  Our apartment is now empty, so you'd would think that the hardest part is over, but it gets even more uncomfortable when you are living on an air mattress and have nowhere to sit and eat your dinner.  Luckily we have a little grilling area behind our building.  

I haven't been the healthiest this week.  And that's OK.  I am soaking up all the time I have left in this city and that means drinking scotch with gummy worms, eating duck skin at Peking Gourmet Inn, and savoring the delicious coconut cake after my beautiful brunch bridal shower.  Life is about living it. Not cutting out the fun stuff to look a certain way.

I am trying to enjoy these last few days in DC, but the thought of leaving so many people I love is hard to get past.  I am trying to focus on being thankful for everything I have gained since coming here, and that includes a new outlook on life, a great career, special people, and a new understanding of myself.

Well that's it, short and sweet for today, heading to the wonderful Centrolina for dinner with my spin friends!  My next post will probably be from my new home, San Diego. 

Talk soon!

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

I'm Back!

I disappeared for a few weeks there!  Now I am back to tell you where I've been and about some exciting changes coming my way.

Update #1:  I am moving to San Diego!
Travis and I are from California and we always planned to move back, but we didn't realize it would be so soon.  Travis was offered an amazing job opportunity, and we couldn't pass it up.  While I am so sad to say goodbye to my DC friends, I am hopeful that this new adventure will be good for us.  We will be nearer to our families and we can start fresh as a married couple.  The move planning on top of wedding planning has taken up a ton of time, which is why I had to put blogging on the back-burner for a while. I started this blog to document my move to the east coast, and now it seems only natural to use it to document my homecoming.

Update #2:  Friends have kept me sane.
I have been spending as much time as possible with the people I love. Between birthdays, my DC bridal shower, and my bachelorette in New Orleans, it hasn't been hard. Here are some photos of all the action.  I will do an update on these wedding festivities soon.

Update #3: I had my last therapy appointment
I have been seeing a therapist for about 15 months after I decided I wanted put an end to my disordered eating and exercise habits.  My therapist saved me, she helped me learn how to listen to my body, to stop fighting food, and to start to accept myself for everything that I am.  It was hard to say goodbye, but with my pending move, she felt  that it was the perfect time to move on and to take everything I've learned with me as I transition to life on the west coast. It is empowering to know that she has the confidence in me to handle the ups and downs that are sure to come my way in the coming months. And she has also made herself available if things get rough.

Update #4: I am happy
I can't believe how much has happened in a year and how much I have changed.  I am proud to be myself again and I am excited to marry the love of my life.  Though I still have bad days here and there, I am so enlightened and free compared to a year ago.  And I know that the sadness I feel about leaving my friends, only means that I have met such incredible, special people.  People who I will have by my side no matter where we live.

I am planning to update this blog more often.  I am behind on a lot of posts I want to write and I am excited to share some San Diego adventures.