The world moves so quickly sometimes. It seems like just moments ago I lived on a college campus overwhelmed by the thought of where life might take me. A blink later I am in a tiny apartment in D.C., worried about whether I am good enough at my job and if I will ever make enough money to afford a home with sunlight. Things were rushing by back then. My eating disorder took root. It helped me to slow the world down by giving me one primary focus and calming the uncertainty; it gave me an outcome I could manipulate on my own.
Over the past year, I have found the practice of being mindful key to improving my life. It was as simple as acknowledging the crunch of a leaf beneath my foot. Or listening to my own deep breath as I lay awake in bed. Or feeling the cold air on my skin as I step outside to greet the day. It is tasting a raisin as it explodes in my mouth with a burst of flavor. It is looking into my partner's eyes and feeling a deep connection to him.
Making an effort to be more mindful was strange at first, but now it seems natural, and the benefits have been life-changing for me. My anxiety has decreased, and my sleep is better. The biggest change is my ability to see the world in more than just black and white, which has had the biggest impact on my mood and my happiness.
It is not something that happened overnight. It was hard work at first to remember to look up at the sunrise on my walk to the gym and to appreciate the way rain feels when it touches my skin... but it has become much easier and more natural over time. The world moves slower now, and life is too short to have it any other way.
Do you make an effort to be mindful in your daily life?