Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Into 2015

Last night I took a Soul Cycle class (thanks little bro for the gift card).  One of the mantras the instructor repeated was...

"What are you leaving behind and what are you taking with you into 2015?"

Leave it to me to be inspired by a soul cycle class. 

2014 was a big year for me.  I hiked to Machu Picchu, I celebrated weddings, I got engaged.  I watched sunrises, I ate delicious foods, I played in the ocean.  I opened my eyes, I forgave myself, I gained weight.  It is baffling to think about who I was a year ago and how far I have come. 

I thought it would be nice to relive and recap some of the things I am bringing with me into 2015.

1) My fiance (duh)

2) Excitement for the future

3) My body as it is.
4) Family and friends I love

5) An open mind

6) Freedom from restrictions

7) Gratitude

8) The ability to recognize beautiful things every day

New year's resolutions do not have to be actionable goals.  For me, a new year is a new opportunity to open myself up even more.  To be present for every new experience, to accept love from friends and family, and to care for myself and my body.

What are you bringing with you in 2015?

Thursday, December 18, 2014

It's been so long!

I have been really busy!  Reading blogs, cooking fancy dinners, dancing...enjoying everything about the holiday season.  This is the first holiday in many years that I haven't had serious anxiety about the amount of food I will be eating and the amount of exercise I may miss out on.  It is the first time in a while I have been excited to leave the comfort of my routine to travel back to California and visit my family.  I had started to try to change my mindset before this time last year, but I was still ridden with guilt and shame when I indulged, and I still made sure to exercise every day. 

Last year, I was so tired of my restrictive habits.  I knew I couldn't do it anymore. I was so envious of people who could be "normal" around food and who could brush off any guilt if they missed a workout.  I decided I was going to get better.

This year, my goal is to discover my new identity (which no longer revolves around my restrictions), to truly accept myself, and to love and appreciate my body at whatever size.

Since I have been gone for a while, and before I jet set off to the West coast, here are some photos of what I've been up to. 

 Homemade tapas - Such a fun way to spice up a weeknight dinner

 Holiday party dancing!

Some healthy meals thrown in of course - this is a quinoa bowl with lots of veggies and a chopped up chicken burger

 Zoolights!  The only time I enjoy the zoo is during Zoolights with a Starbucks Peppermint Mocha in hand

One of the highlights was our Thanksgiving dinner accompanied by Episodes 1-12 of R. Kelly's trapped in the closet.  There is nothing like watching a brilliant piece of art alongside the friends you love.
I hope you are enjoying the holidays as much as I am.  I hope that you are finding ways to relax, letting yourself rest, and not worrying about the food.  Now is the time to focus on everything we are grateful for.

Happy holidays!