Wednesday, November 12, 2014

What I REALLY Ate Wednesday

Many of us who peruse the healthy-living blogosphere (sp? is that a word?) are familiar with a special Wednesday event.  On Wednesday's I look forward to snooping into people's daily eats thought their What I Ate Wednesday (aka WIAW) posts.

However, I often find myself playing the comparison game.  Thinking I ate more than that today, or I should make healthier choices like this person.  But the truth is, I am sick of comparing myself to any one else.  And the even sadder, partially-related truth is... I still sometimes question and worry about what I eat and how much I eat.

Today I was inspired to participate in WIAW because I thought it would be a fun challenge to try to picture EVERYTHING I eat in a day and address how I feel about it.  Not to dwell on it or draw attention to some of these lingering issues, but to confront them and acknowledge that there is still progress to be made in my effort to escape the diet and food-rule mentality.

Here it goes!

I woke up at 6:30am and had a snack before heading to the gym.  I ate a piece of Trader Joe's 10 Grain Toast with extra crunchy peanut butter, I wondered if it was unnecessary considering I was planning a quick sweat session, but decided that if I didn't eat it, I would be starving later so it was the right thing to do.

Whoops almost forgot to take the pic!

Went down to Average Joe's (the little basement gym in our apartment building), where I did a 40 minute walk/jog session.  I wondered if I should be pushing harder.  Then I decided I was enough ;)

Stay Hydrated Folks.

Glad to be home to get ready instead of getting ready at the actual gym, as I do some mornings.  Lovely Fall morning.



Then there was breakfast at 8:30.  My favorite.  One egg and egg beaters on an English muffin.  I know, I know, egg beaters probably aren't the best, but I love the way they taste when you make them really thin.  No emotions here, just enjoyed by favorite breakfast in pure bliss.


Needed something sweet because I always need something sweet after my meals, even breakfast.  A handful of Honeynut O's did the trick.


Lovely walk to work.  Ahhh I miss California.  Luckily I live near California Street.  Also paused here to appreciate the veterans on Veteran's day.

Great view of the Washington Monument!


Morning snack around 11.  I was really hungry already, so I had a banana in yogurt with some peanut butter.  Yes yes, I love peanut butter.


At 12:30, I had a lunch with one of my favorite people at work.  She is our talented marketing copywriter, but also is writing a novel - I love sharing stories with her.  I did worry about how much more I would probably eat going out rather than packing my usual sandwich, but I reminded myself that it was about the company.  Lunch was about my friendship with Angie.  Not the food.

Though the food ended up being awesome!  
Grilled fish platter, from Grillfish DC plus some un-pictured bread and butter from the bread basket.


Went for an afternoon walk later in the day to escape the craziness of the office and to enjoy the freakishly nice November weather.


By 4:30 I was ready for a snack.

 

I knew that amount of popcorn would not be enough.  I needed a coffee-filter's worth...? Whatever works!


Walked home from work in the dark, so sorry, no pictures.

Noshed on some carrots while I preheated the oven and browsed Pinterest for boutineer ideas :)


Dinner was awesome.  We just went to Trader Joe's yesterday and I brought a precooked Turkey Pot Pie.  It was so good!  All you do is pop it in the oven for 20 mins.  Roasted some broccoli to go with it.  Don't judge me... yes, I put ranch dressing on my broccoli.  I have become pretty tired of certain vegetables because I overdid it on them back when I was obnoxiously, obsessively healthy.  Now I like them with ranch dressing - so eff it.

Did I think to myself I should have a salad or a chicken breast to be "healthier"?  Yes.  But then I reminded myself that this pot pie had fat which would keep me full, lots of root vegetables and turkey for protein.  And there couldn't have been a better fall day for it.  I cleared my plate (as I pretty much always do).


And dessert of course.  A Mini Ice Cream Sandwich.

My sweet tooth was still not completely satisfied.  When I saw my favorite treat in the fridge, I wanted a bite, but I worried that eating more would be overdoing it because I fairly full.  I decided to have a few blissful bites of this Coconut Milk yogurt  anyway (another Trader Joe's must).  That definitely did the trick - I will have the rest tomorrow.


This was a pretty typical day for me.  I hope you don't compare your food choices to mine, because I honestly don't know where they fall in the spectrum of "good" versus "bad."  I don't know if this is considered what people refer to as the 80/20 plan, and I don't think this meal plan would be featured in fitness magazines anytime soon. This is just what works for me.

I do hope this helps me figure out why I still sometimes attach emotions to my food, and how to stop questioning and over thinking my choices.   I also feel like this serves me as reminder of how far I have come in my journey to escape a weight-loss mentality.



2 comments:

  1. I love how normal this is and loved reading your emotions behind each thing. I can relate to so much of this. I certainly may do a post in this style sometime soon, so thank you for the inspiration. On the rare occasions I eat lunch out on a weekday, I too worry about how much more I will eat/more calories I will consume than if I packed lunch. I also ALWAYS worry about having a snack in the morning before the gym and never think my workout will be enough to justify one. Thanks as always for keeping it real and I'm glad you loved your lunch with your friend and that fab looking breakfast (I love english muffins).

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    1. Thanks Cait! And thanks for the tweet - I think you drive 80% of the traffic here ;)

      Sometimes I think that I am totally over the restrictive mindset, but then I have thoughts like these, which I know aren't typical of people without a history of food issues. I mean, I am able to ignore them, but they do make me a little uncomfortable. It is hard to tell what limits are my body's versus my mind's - so it helps to write it out. Makes me realize that a lot of it is the old habits talking and I wonder if they will ever go away or if they are normal...

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