Sunday, November 9, 2014

Take a Breath

“When you are content to be simply yourself and don't compare or compete, everyone will respect you.”
― Lao Tzu, Tao Te Ching

I believe I have always had some social anxiety.  I analyze a lot of the things I say, I question whether I deserve what I have been given, I am easily intimidated by smart, successful people. I think this has to do with the fact that I am a highly sensitive person.

I am not one to hide my thoughts or feelings, I live a very open life and I don't have any big secrets anymore.  While it is freeing, it also leaves me feeling very vulnerable quite often - it is scary. 

When the anxiety begins to surface..."I shouldn't have said that", "they must think I am crazy", "I am obnoxious", "I should have done better", "I am not smart enough".... I shut it down.

I think of the people who love me.  I think of the love I give others.  I use the skills I learned to fight back against my disordered eating.  I self-sooth.  I change the conversation.  I show myself the same compassion I show others.  

Just know that whatever you say or do, and whatever mistakes you make or regrets you have.  They are all part of the always-evolving journey toward figuring this life out.

Give yourself a break, mix a cocktail, and take breath.


XOXO,
Linds







2 comments:

  1. Definitely all great words to keep in mind. I often have to tell myself to just STOP and take a deep breath. I even sometimes tell myself to "shut up", haha. I know it's not very compassionate but sometimes I need to be harsh to my brain, when it's being harsh to me.

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    1. Haha, I like that. Sometimes I use expletives as well. "F*** it!" is a good one to kick those nasty thoughts.

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