So I thought a lot about it and realized that my relationship with exercise was still off. I still sometimes think of it as an equation, where I inadvertently compare the amount I burn versus what I consume. I have to keep reminding myself that I am no longer trying to lose weight - if I exercise more I just need to eat more. So logically, I can definitely exercise less and I will probably not be as ravenously hungry all the time.
So far, it is working.
I decided to take a step back this week. I have taken two rest days already and I plan to stick with that schedule. I also am changing the length of my workouts two days a week from an hour to about 30-45 minutes.
It definitely feels uncomfortable to exercise less, but that just goes to show that I am stuck in old habits. I have noticed by appetite lessening a bit, so I think my body is processing everything properly. It is definitely challenging for me to trust it - but I keep reassuring myself that I am at my set point now, I have definitely stopped gaining weight. I have pushed through uncomfortable before and I know I can do it again, everything always gets easier.
I will leave you with another epiphany worth noting.
If you ever have a chance to dance with a fox with glowsticks... You dance.
Sorry, feeling a little punchy tonight, it was a long day.
Oh!! And I almost forgot to tell you...
I am engaged!!!
I will share the full story soon, I am still beaming :)