Thursday, April 17, 2014

On Body Acceptance

This morning at the gym…

“Hey Lindsay, come over here a sec.  Do you have news?”

Looks down.

“Anything special to announce?”

Reaches toward me

“Are you expecting?”


Yes everyone, this happened to me today.  At the gym. 

I was frozen.  I was shocked and thought it was a joke, then realized that it wasn't.  I do look different than I did months ago.  I was scrawny, I was unhappy, I was unhealthy.

I have come so far and I am happy with where I am.  My body is gaining weight because I had restricted it from the calories it needed and my metabolism slowed down.  Now that I am eating a healthier amount of food, I am being patient as my body gets stronger and my metabolism wakes back up.  I know this is a process and I am trying to trust in it.

I am accepting this new version of myself – but other people just remember the mini version of me and assume that was the real “me.”  It wasn’t me, I was a fraud, I am finally becoming the person I really am, and I am so much the better for it.  Damn right I am apple shaped, and my boobs are huge and I love them!

This morning’s egg sandwich with extra cheese reminds me why it is worth it to let go of worries about calories and guilt.  Did you know you can microwave eggs and they actually come out super fluffy?  Just nuke ‘em for about 1 minute!



Off to NYC this weekend, and looking forward to eating for two despite the fact that it’s just me ;)

Check out these inspiring posts around the same topic:
Clare @fitting it all in
Carly @Snack Therapy
Sam @Better with Sprinkles


4 comments:

  1. Can't wait to see you and your huge boobs this weekend!

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    1. It was awesome seeing you! Already trying to concoct a plan to come back :)

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  2. I'm just so taken aback that someone thought it was okay to ask if you were expecting. Even if you were - it's NEVER okay to ask. I'm so sorry.

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    1. Thanks Angie. I know - I was in shock. I am sure she won't ask anyone again. Just trying not to let it hinder the progress I have made, I was too thin and I am finally feeling like the real me :)

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